When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

– Paulo Coelho

For a long time something had been stuck in my throat. I could not breathe. I blamed it on the food, air almost everything I touch but it was all about to change. One fine day, I woke up to decide that I will fix it. I will take the responsibility and come what may, I will be free. I will breathe again. Yes, I will. Just about the same time I came across this amazing author/ philosopher called Paulo Coelho . Yeah, his books and thoughts came to me at the right time. It changed my entire thought process. I read one book after the other and sometimes 2 books at the same time .. I was addicted.

I was addicted? Yes, to the love for life, to the belief of something bigger, to the freedom of no limitation. All the boundaries came crashing down and all the walls were broken, all the mountains were climbed and all the deserts were crossed. Nothing seemed impossible. For 10 years, I progressed, slow but I moved and fulfilled all my bucket list items. I was a woman I loved. I was the woman I wanted to be…

Time went by…. quickly..

Last year in October my mom fell sick- as any other human I reached out to the mighty universe who had become a business as usual and totally taken for granted for guidance, for manifestation, for courage, for the touch, for the miracle. I was reconnected… I meditated each day to manifest the law of the universe and while I am sure it helped in my mom’s healing, it healed me once again. Or, probably I should say it woke me up! I nicely and very conveniently had cuddled into my comfort zone. Everything was perfect – comfortable job, great partner, enough money etc etc. However, where was the woman who was constantly achieving? she was lost in the comforts of life, in routine and in her pyjamas sleeping away to glory. She has forgotten that she was in here to fight – fight the very same thing she was getting tempted to. Routine! going with the flow! not having a purpose in life and not having a sense of progress in life. I was in a comfortable job and by comfort I really mean comfort. No one would question me if I am late, no deliverables, no accountability and before I knew I was used to it and guess what, I stopped pushing myself to my next goal. My goals journal was blank for 2 years!

As I was dealing with my mom’s sickness with no control on the situation since she was in India and I was here in Sydney and could not travel due to the Covid 19 restrictions – I was forced by the universe to leave control and trust – have faith.

It was at the same time I realised how stagnant I had become. I needed to change…

Be brave. Take risks. Nothing can substitute experience

-Paulo Coelho

It is said that the tests increase when you are on the right path. My comfort level changed upside down. I started having issues at work – negative vibes, the very job I was too comfortable in, now seemed boring, I started having small fights with my partner and felt unheard and unappreciated and my fire to come out of the comfort zone rekindled… I was back!

The first thing I decided to do was to appear for interviews to place myself back in the pool – I was appearing for an interview after 4 years of comfort. I bagged a job within a month and on the last day of the previous job as I looked around to watch my farewell decoration which my colleagues who loved me or were used to me -set up an elaborate decoration ..and I must say I felt very grateful and happy looking at the hard work – I had a sense of progress, achievement. I had come out of my biggest comfort. My job!

Next was my personal relationship. I know I have a loyal and loving partner and I realised I was doing things more to please him and less to be myself. I had less time for myself and less of me every day. I realised I did not need that. I was a woman who believed that if someone loves me, they will love me the way I am. I am on a path and anyone who wants to walk the path, will. I decided to be that woman again, and it was much easier and healthier now that I already had someone in my life who not only loved me for the woman I am but believed in me more than I believed in myself. I was loved. The biggest roadblock to that was my fear of losing and being lonely.. and it was surprising to see that had creeped in from nowhere…

Almost as an assurance from the universe, I got a piano as a gift for my birthday by my partner and it was the best gift ever because it is an integral part of me – notes, music, rhythm. I felt recognised, I recognised myself, found myself back..

Now I have a promise – never to lose myself to comfort again! ever in my life… I am on a journey. I am on a journey to motivate, to uplift and to believe in uniqueness, to provide compassion to those who need it and to give empathy to the ones who want to get up and move. And I know with the guidance from the super master, I will be able to achieve it. Anyone on a mission of being above themselves and living a higher purpose cannot afford being weak and stagnant

I want to reach out to the masses, share parts of my life bit by bit to connect and go beyond ” are you okay”