She is writing after a long time. It is amazing how she decides to write every day because she realised that she feels herself and out of the entire day of rush this is something no one can take away from her. It is precious. This is a time when she is herself and can only think what she wants and likes to think and the pen just flows, the keys of the keyboard in this case.

And then, life happens and she misses one day after another and moments turn into days and days turn into months before one day she feels her heart is going to burst, That’s correct, not her head because I think she hardly ever uses that 🙂

Today is such a day, she thinks…

Sometimes in life, we don’t have time for the most precious thing for us. We take our loved ones for granted, we want to spend time with them but end up spending time on the phone.. we want to say I love you but argue instead and sometimes, when after preparing for a long time, we go to say it, or show them a gesture or spend happy moments, they are either under the earth or far away or don’t have time for us. Human beings are so strange in that way.

“Anyway, today is not such a day” – she thought – She was sick of feeling guilty about not giving herself enough time and today she was going to fix it.

She started analysing why this happens and why days go by just doing things for others and not thinking about herself. Sometimes it is okay because she is paid for them but other times, it has only one reward – hope for appreciation, which sometimes never becomes a reality. Then why does she do it? what is in it for her?

Sometimes she feels she is riding someone else’s boat and no one cares about hers. Every morning she wakes up thinking no one is coming to save her and pushes herself out of sleep. “I am sure it is not that bad” Gosh, I sound like a sad woman”, she thought. The fact is, the easiest fight in our life, something that almost seems so obvious is the toughest one – the fight for ourselves, the fight for beliefs, the fight to say no to something that our heart does not agree with, the fight for not being judged and the fight to save some time for ourselves. It is important. Days can go by without us realising that we have achieved but have gone so far away from ourselves… to the point we ask who is this?

Instead of spending time with ourselves and feeding our souls, we then go read self-help books that teach us the same thing but still don’t have to talk to our souls. We also love listening, idolising people we think have mastered the art of peacefulness and calmness, or maybe doing some yoga or even flying to India looking for a yogi but still don’t spend regular time with coffee with our best and longest friend in flesh and blood – our self.

Give time to yourself, do what you love doing and that does not mean not doing the regular things, just talk to yourself and it knows it all.. your soul.

You ask you will get – true unconditional love.

Until next time –