I heard someone say once – “you want to write? – Just write”. Excuse me! but I am exactly trying to do that. I am writing without the fear of judgments, I am writing without being shameful of exposing a piece of me and I am writing with all the courage, creativity, and boldness I have. I am writing for myself and the people who are on the same path as me. I think it is a strange bond between a person who expresses and a person who receives and grasps it. It is a way of saying, hey, we connect on a deeper level. Forget the world – focus on me!

Creative writing I believe is something that flows, no course or training is required as such – it is a zeal to share yourself with the world. Well, others might debate and I am good with that. I’m just writing 🙂

Recently, I picked up my old journal and started reading it with the intention of understanding myself. I was surprised. And. I am sure I would not be the only one. Try doing it yourself and you will be surprised too.

I figured that I was full of fights. I was fighting against everything – for the right reasons in my mind. In my mind, I was fighting for world peace, truth, humanity, and all those amazing words. The most hilarious part is – I was fighting for “live and let live” but the question to be asked to the then “I” was – was I doing the same? – we will come to it later.

I can still feel the heaviness I used to carry trying to think that everyone is here to harm me, I have to save myself and others ( I don’t know who gave me that responsibility) from the “bad” of the world. Everything that can go wrong will go wrong and I have to protect. Phew! I realized a certain phase of my life was about being safe while the first person I needed protection from was me.

Sitting here today, at this point in my life after understanding the true definition of peace, I wish I could go back and learn to trust a bit more, learn to let go a bit more, and learn to ask questions a bit more before forming an opinion.

Well, I can’t complain much in terms of my professional life because I got the role of a Quality manager which built up my career because I was Judgemental and could analyze actions to death. But, I can definitely say that it did not help me as a person, especially as a person with the Goals that I have.

Do comment and let me know do you do the same? Do you feel the same? #awareness

Till next time!